David Hollister sat at his desk in the agency's offices on Madison Avenue and stared at the blank sheet of paper in his typewriter. It was four o'clock on a Tuesday afternoon in October of 1954. Outside the window, the city was the color of newsprint and cigarette smoke. Inside, David was trying to write an advertisement for Chesterfield cigarettes, and failing. The deadline was Friday. He had been failing since Monday. The ad was supposed to be simple. A photograph of a distinguished-looking man in a well-cut suit, standing beside a window in a modern office building, holding a Chesterfield with the kind of casual confidence that suggested he had never doubted anything in his life. The headline would say something about taste. The body copy would say something about satisfaction. The man in the photograph would look like the kind of man other men wanted to be and women wanted to be with. This was the formula. David had used the formula for twelve years and it had never failed him, which was part of the problem. He had been using the formula for so long that he had stopped noticing there was a formula at all. He had become the formula. The formula was using him. He lit a Chesterfield himself. He inhaled. He looked at the blank page. He typed a single sentence, then pulled the paper out of the typewriter and crumpled it and threw it in the wastebasket. He had done this seventeen times since Monday. The wastebasket was full. The sentence he had typed was this: The man in the photograph is not who you think he is. It was not an advertisement. It was the beginning of something else. David did not know what it was yet, but he could feel it pressing against the inside of his skull, demanding to be written. He put a fresh sheet of paper in the typewriter and began to type something that was not an advertisement at all. The man in the photograph is named Robert Calloway. He is forty-seven years old. He works for an insurance company in Hartford, Connecticut, where he has been employed since he was twenty-two. His job title is Director of Client Communications, which means he writes letters to policyholders explaining why their claims have been denied. He is very good at this. He has been told so many times by his superiors, who value his talent for making rejection sound like protection. Robert Calloway has a wife named Margaret and two daughters named Emily and Susan. He lives in a house in West Hartford that has a lawn and a garage and a mortgage that will be paid off in nineteen years. Every morning he takes the seven forty-two train into the city and every evening he takes the six fifteen train home and in between he writes letters that tell people they will not receive what they were promised. David stopped typing. He read what he had written. It was not an advertisement. It was not even close to an advertisement. It was the beginning of a story about a man who was exactly like David, except for the name and the city and the job and the fact that David wrote advertisements for cigarettes instead of letters denying insurance claims. The similarity was in the structure. The similarity was in the shape of the life. David looked at the page for a long time and then he kept typing, because he had to know what happened next. Robert Calloway sits at his own desk in Hartford and stares at his own blank sheet of paper. He is supposed to be writing a letter to a policyholder named Mr. Henderson, whose fire insurance claim has been denied on the grounds that the fire was caused by negligence. The fire destroyed Mr. Henderson's hardware store. Mr. Henderson is sixty-three years old. He has been paying premiums for thirty-one years. Robert Calloway knows all of this because the file is open on his desk. He also knows that Mr. Henderson's fire was not caused by negligence, that the investigation was flawed, that the adjuster took a bribe from the regional manager to write a report that would justify denial. Robert Calloway knows this because the regional manager told him, casually, over lunch three weeks ago, between the soup and the sandwich, as if it were the most ordinary thing in the world. Robert Calloway does not write the letter to Mr. Henderson. Instead, he pulls out a fresh sheet of paper from his desk drawer, the personal stationery his wife gave him for Christmas, and begins to write something else. He writes about a man named Thomas Weaver. Thomas Weaver is thirty-five years old. He works for an advertising agency on Madison Avenue, where he writes copy for toothpaste and floor wax and occasionally for a brand of canned soup that he suspects is made primarily of salt and regret. Thomas Weaver has a wife named Claire and a son named Daniel who is seven years old and who asks questions that Thomas cannot answer, such as why the sky is blue and why his father comes home so late and why his father's eyes look like windows in an empty house. David stopped typing again. His hands were shaking. Thomas Weaver was thirty-five years old. David was forty-two. Thomas Weaver had a son named Daniel who was seven. David had a son named Peter who was eight. The names were different. Everything else was the same. He was writing himself into the story, and he had not noticed he was doing it, and now that he had noticed he could not stop. Thomas Weaver is sitting at his desk on Madison Avenue and he is supposed to be writing copy for a toothpaste advertisement but instead he is writing about a man named David Hollister. David Hollister is forty-two years old. He works for an advertising agency on Madison Avenue, the same agency where Thomas Weaver works, except Thomas Weaver is a fictional character whom David Hollister has invented to write about himself, and David Hollister is a fictional character whom Robert Calloway has invented to write about himself, and Robert Calloway is a fictional character whom David Hollister has invented to write about Robert Calloway. The recursion has no beginning and no end. Each man is writing the man who wrote him, and they are all the same man, and the man is being used. The man has always been used. David stared at the page. The recursion had consumed him. He could see it now, the structure of it, the way each layer contained the layer above and was contained by the layer below, an infinite nesting of men who had been turned into instruments by the institutions they served. The insurance company used Robert Calloway to deliver denials. The advertising agency used Thomas Weaver to deliver lies. The advertising agency used David Hollister to deliver the same lies. There was no difference between any of them. They were all the same man, at different depths of the recursion, and at no depth was the man free. He thought about his wife, Eleanor. He thought about his son, Peter. He thought about the house in Westport with the lawn and the garage and the mortgage that would be paid off in seventeen years. He thought about the six forty-eight train he took every morning and the seven twelve train he took every evening and the years between the trains that were filled with words he did not believe about products he did not care about. He had been used. He had let himself be used. He had told himself it was for the family, for the house, for the future, but the future had arrived and it looked exactly like the present and the present was a man sitting at a typewriter writing about a man sitting at a typewriter writing about a man sitting at a typewriter, forever, and nothing ever changed. Except that something did change. Robert Calloway did not write the letter to Mr. Henderson. He wrote, instead, a letter to the Connecticut State Insurance Commission detailing the bribe, the flawed investigation, the thirty-one years of premiums that had been accepted in good faith. He signed it with his own name. He put it in an envelope and addressed it and walked it to the mailbox himself, on his lunch break, and when he came back to his desk he felt something he had not felt in twenty-five years. He felt like a man who had done something true. He was fired three weeks later. His wife left him. He lost the house in West Hartford. He moved to a small apartment in New Haven and worked as a night clerk at a hotel and spent his evenings writing letters that no one would ever read, letters about what it felt like to be used and what it felt like to stop being used and what it cost to make that choice. He wrote them in longhand on the same personal stationery his wife had given him, the wife who was no longer his wife, and when he died ten years later of a heart attack at the age of fifty-seven, the letters were found in a cardboard box under his bed, unsealed, unread, addressed to no one. David read the paragraph he had just typed. Robert Calloway was a fictional character. David had invented him. He was not required to give him a sad ending. He was not required to give him an ending at all. He could stop typing and throw the page in the wastebasket with the seventeen other pages and go back to writing the Chesterfield advertisement and everything would be fine. The formula would continue. The trains would continue. The house in Westport would continue. He did not stop typing. Thomas Weaver did not write the toothpaste advertisement. He wrote, instead, a resignation letter. He wrote that he could no longer spend his life making people want things they did not need by telling them lies they would believe. He wrote that his son Daniel had asked him, the night before, whether he liked his job, and Thomas had said yes, and Daniel had asked why, and Thomas had not been able to answer. He wrote that he did not know what he would do next, but he knew what he would not do, and that was enough for now. He signed the letter and put it on his supervisor's desk and walked out of the office and took the train home and when he arrived his wife was standing in the doorway with an expression that was equal parts terror and relief, because she had known for years that this day would come and she had not known what she would feel when it arrived. David typed until his fingers hurt. He could see it now, the full structure of the recursion, the way each man had a choice at his level and the way each choice rippled upward and downward through the layers. Robert Calloway had chosen to write the letter to the insurance commission. Thomas Weaver had chosen to resign. The choices were not the same, but they were the same in essence. They were the choice to stop being used. They were the choice to become the user instead of the tool, even if the only thing you could use was the truth. David looked at the clock. It was seven thirty in the evening. He had missed the seven twelve train. Eleanor would be worried. Peter would be asleep. The Chesterfield advertisement was due on Friday. The blank sheet of paper was still in the typewriter, and now it was not blank. It was full of words about men who had stopped being used, and David did not know if he was one of them or if he was still writing about someone else. He pulled the last page out of the typewriter. He read the whole thing, from beginning to end, all twenty-three pages. Then he put a fresh sheet of paper in the typewriter and wrote a single sentence. It was not an advertisement. It was not the beginning of another recursion. It was a sentence about himself, in his own voice, at the outermost layer of the nesting, the only layer that was not fictional. I do not know if I can do what they did. He looked at the sentence for a long time. Then he typed another sentence. Then another. He wrote until the cleaning lady came in at nine o'clock and told him the building was closing. He wrote about Eleanor and Peter and the house in Westport and the six forty-eight train and the twelve years he had spent writing words he did not believe. He wrote about what it felt like to discover that you were inside a story you did not write, being used by institutions you did not build, for purposes you did not choose. He wrote about the recursion, about Robert Calloway and Thomas Weaver and the infinite nesting of men who were all the same man, and he wrote about the moment when the nesting broke. When he finished, he put the pages in his briefcase and walked out into the October night. The city was cold and the streets were wet and the lights were the color of scotch and loneliness. He walked to Grand Central and waited for the next train to Westport. On the train, he opened his briefcase and looked at the pages and thought about what he would do on Friday when the Chesterfield deadline arrived. He did not know. He did not know what he was capable of, or what he had become, or what it would cost to find out. 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