The house knew I was listening before I knew it myself. It stood on a hill outside of Natchez, Mississippi, the kind of hill that looks gentle from the road but is actually steep and unforgiving if you know how to look at it. The house was white, or it had been white once, before the paint began to peel in long strips that curled at the edges like dead skin. The columns in front were the kind of columns that appear in photographs of the Old South, round and stately and supporting a porch that had once been wide enough for four rocking chairs and a small table with a glass of iced tea. Now there were two rocking chairs, both broken, and the table had collapsed in 1987 during a thunderstorm and nobody had bothered to remove it. I was thirteen when I first heard the piano. It was not an instrument I expected to find in a house that contained so many other things I was not expected to find. The house contained a library with books that had never been read, a kitchen with utensils that had last been used in 1962, a parlor with furniture covered in white sheets that made the rooms look like a hospital for ghosts. But the piano was not hidden. It was in the music room, which was a small room on the second floor, down the hall from my bedroom, past the bathroom that had a bathtub with feet like lion claws and a shower curtain that depicted scenes from the Bible that my grandfather had selected because he believed that pornography was a Northern invention designed to corrupt Southern youth. The piano was a Mason & Hamlin, which is a Boston piano maker that went out of business in 1927. It was black and it was tall and it was covered in a thin layer of dust that was the same color as the rest of the house. I found it on a Tuesday in March, which was a spring Tuesday in Mississippi that was already hot enough to make you sweat before noon. I was looking for somewhere to hide. My grandfather, Colonel Beauregard—though nobody had called him a colonel since 1945, the year he came home from a war that ended before he was born because he was too young to fight and too old to forget—was in one of his moods. The moods came and went like weather in Mississippi: unpredictable, sometimes violent, usually followed by a silence that was heavier than the storm. The music room was at the end of the hall, and the door was open, and I pushed it open and the piano was there and the light was coming through the window in a way that made the dust look like gold, and I sat down on the bench, which groaned under my weight the way old things do when they are being asked to do something they were not designed for, even though a piano bench is designed for sitting and I was only ninety pounds soaking wet. I pressed a key. It was middle C, though I did not know the name then. It sounded like a bell that had been dropped from a great height and was still ringing. I pressed another. And another. I did not know how to play. I had never taken a lesson in my life. The nearest music teacher was in Jackson, which was two hours away, and my grandfather did not believe in music teachers, which was generous phrasing for a man who believed in almost nothing except the version of history that made his family look like heroes instead of the people they actually were. But I pressed the keys anyway, and what came out was not music in the way that music is usually understood. It was not a melody or a chord progression or anything that could be written down in a book. It was a sound that I had heard before, though I could not say where. It was a sound that lived in the walls of the house, in the floorboards, in the space between the plaster and the lath. It was a sound that the house had been making for a long time, and I was finally hearing it. My name is Silas Beauregard. I am thirteen years old. I live in a house that is slowly dying, and I am the only person in it who can hear it singing. The first person to hear me play was my aunt Clara. Aunt Clara was my grandfather's younger sister, though "sister" is a word that carries assumptions that do not apply to our situation. Clara was thirty-five years old, which in Natchez is old for an unmarried woman and young for a woman who has already lived three different lives and been exiled from all of them. She lived in a small room on the first floor of the house, a room that had once been a sitting room and had been converted into a bedroom when Grandfather decided that having an unmarried woman wandering the halls at night was a security risk. Clara was beautiful in the way that people who have survived something difficult are beautiful: not the beauty of youth or symmetry or skin that has never been exposed to harsh light, but the beauty of a face that has made decisions about which expressions to keep and which to discard. She had dark hair that she wore in a bun that was always slightly imperfect, and she had eyes that were the color of the Mississippi River when it is raining, and she had a mouth that was either about to smile or about to cry, and you could never tell which. She stood in the doorway of the music room and she listened to me play for ten minutes. I did not know she was there. I was playing the same three notes over and over again, changing the rhythm each time, the way a child changes the rhythm of tapping a pencil on a desk when the teacher is not looking. When I stopped, she said nothing for a long time. Then she said, "Where did you learn to play like that?" "I didn't," I said. She came into the room and she sat down on the bench next to me. The bench groaned again. She placed her hand on the keys and she played a chord, simple and clean and perfect. "You heard something," she said. "Didn't you?" I nodded. "The house?" I nodded again. She closed her eyes. When she opened them, they were wet. "You hear it too," she said. "Good. Someone should." Aunt Clara began to teach me to play. She did not teach me from books. She did not teach me scales or theory or the things that music teachers in Natchez taught to the children of people who had money and wanted their children to be able to play "Chopsticks" at Christmas dinner. She taught me by playing things and making me listen and then play them back. She played hymns from the church she had not attended since 1958, the year she was discovered talking to a man she was not married to. She played blues that she had heard from a man who had played them for her in a bar in Jackson, the year she drove to Jackson alone in a car that belonged to a neighbor and came back with her hair cut short and her eyes red and her mouth set in a way that suggested she had made a decision that she was not going to change. She played classical pieces that she had learned from a book that belonged to my grandmother, who had been dead before I was born and about whom I knew more from the things people did not say than from the things they did. Each piece she played was a door, and each door led to a room in the house that I had not known existed. The hymns led to a room where women in dresses had knelt on hard floors and prayed for things they were not allowed to ask for out loud. The blues led to a room where a man with dark skin and hands that were calloused from work that nobody paid him for had played a guitar and sung a song that made the air feel heavier. The classical pieces led to a room where a woman who had never spoken above a whisper had sat at a piano that was not hers and played music that her father had taught her and then had never played again. I played all of these things, and with each piece, I understood a little more about the house, and with each understanding, the house seemed to settle a little deeper into the ground, like a body that has stopped struggling and is finally accepting the weight of the earth above it. My grandfather did not know about the piano. He did not know about Clara teaching me. He did not know about any of the things that were happening in the house while he was sitting in his study, reading newspapers from Memphis and drinking bourbon from a glass that had belonged to his father, who had belonged to his father, in an unbroken line of men who had never questioned the house or the hill or the history that was written into the floorboards. I found out about the history one afternoon in April. I was looking for somewhere to hide from another one of Grandfather's moods, which had been triggered by something involving a letter from a man in Chicago who claimed to be related to the family. Grandfather had torn the letter up. He had torn it up the way he tore up everything that contradicted the story he told about himself: with violence, with finality, with the absolute conviction that if he destroyed the evidence, the truth would disappear with it. I was in the library, which was a room full of books that nobody read and shelves that were heavy with the weight of words that nobody had processed. I was looking for a place to sit that was not visible from the door, and I moved a bookshelf that was on wheels—which meant that it rolled when I pushed it, which meant that it had been designed to be moved, which meant that someone, at some point, had wanted this bookshelf to be moved—and behind it was a door that I had never seen before. The door was small and wooden and painted the same color as the wall, which was a color that in Natchez is called "colonial white" but in this house was actually "the color of something that has been painted over so many times that the original color has been erased." The door had a handle that was brass and the brass was green in places where it had been touched by hands that had not been wearing gloves. I opened the door. The room behind it was small and dark and smelled like paper that had been left in the sun. It was a closet, or what had once been a closet and had been converted into something else. There were shelves, and on the shelves were boxes. Not the kind of boxes that contain Christmas decorations or old clothes or things that a family keeps because throwing them away feels like throwing away a piece of themselves. These were boxes that contained documents. Stacks of them. Bundled together with string that had gone brittle with age and snapped when I touched the first one. I sat on the floor and I read. The documents were deeds. Property deeds. From 1842 to 1865. They listed names: land, livestock, and human beings. The human beings were listed at the bottom of each deed, under a heading that was written in a hand that was careful and precise and utterly dehumanizing. Slaves. The word appeared on page after page, in columns next to names that were the property of the Beauregard family. I read the names. There were hundreds of them. Thomas. Sarah. James. Mary. William. Elizabeth. Children listed separately, under headings that made my stomach turn: "Girls, ages 8 to 14." "Boys, ages 6 to 12." "Useless: one man, blind in left eye." I sat on the floor of the closet behind the bookshelf in the library of the Beauregard house and I read the names of people who had been owned by my family, and I understood that the house was not just a house. It was a ledger. It was a record. It was a document that had been written in blood and paint and silence, and I was the first person in my generation who could hear it speaking. I closed the boxes. I pushed the bookshelf back. I walked out of the library and I went to the music room and I sat down at the piano and I played. I did not play a hymn. I did not play a classical piece. I played something that was neither, something that was both, something that Aunt Clara had taught me without knowing that she was teaching me, a melody that was built from a hymn and a blues and a sonatina, layered on top of each other like the layers of paint on the door to the closet, each layer covering the one below it but none of them erasing it. I played it and the house listened. I know it listened. Not in the way that a person listens, with attention and intention and the capacity to choose to pay attention or not. The house listened the way a body listens to a fever: involuntarily, unavoidably, as a symptom of something that is happening inside it. I played it for my grandfather. I did not intend to. I was not planning a confrontation. I was not looking for a fight. I was thirteen years old and I had just discovered that my family's history was written in a language that my grandfather had spent his entire life refusing to read, and I wanted to play the music that the history had created, and I wanted to play it somewhere that was not the music room, because the music room had become too small, too contained, too much like a cage for the thing that was growing inside me. So I played it at Sunday dinner. Sunday dinner was a ritual in the Beauregard house. It was the one thing that my grandfather refused to let change, the one tradition that he held onto with the same grip he had used to hold onto everything else in his life: with desperation, with violence, with the absolute certainty that if he let go, everything would fall apart. The table was set every Sunday at noon. The good china, which had been made in England and had arrived in Natchez in 1852 on a ship that had also carried cotton and slaves and things that the Beauregard family had purchased with the money that the slaves had produced. The silverware, which had been polished until it was almost transparent. The linen tablecloth, which had been ironed by Aunt Clara, who ironed it every Saturday night while my grandfather sat in his study and drank bourbon and read newspapers from Memphis. I sat at the table on Sunday, April 14th, 1957, and I ate my fried chicken and my collard greens and my cornbread, and I listened to my grandfather talk about the war that he had not fought, and the South that he had not lived in, and the people who had wronged him, and the people who had wronged his father, and the people who had wronged his father's father, in an unbroken chain of grievances that stretched back to a point where it was impossible to tell where the history ended and the mythology began. After dinner, I stood up. I said nothing. I walked out of the dining room and down the hall and into the music room and I sat down at the piano and I played. I played the hymn. I played the blues. I played the sonatina. I layered them on top of each other the way I had learned them from Aunt Clara, the way the house had taught me, the way the names in the closet had written themselves into my hands. I played it and my grandfather stood in the doorway and he listened, and his face was doing something that I had never seen it do. It was not anger. It was not sadness. It was the face of a man who is hearing a voice that he has been trying not to hear for eighty-seven years, and the voice is his own, and it is saying things that he has spent his entire life refusing to say. When I finished, he said nothing. He turned around and he walked away. He did not look back. Aunt Clara was in the kitchen when I came out of the music room. She was standing at the sink, washing a plate that had already been clean when she picked it up. She was crying. Not the kind of crying that makes noise. The kind of crying that is silent and internal and happens in a way that people who are not crying can see but cannot understand. "You played it," she said. "I played it." "He heard it." "He heard it." Clara set the plate down. She turned around and she looked at me, and her face was wet, and she was smiling in a way that was not a smile, it was a grimace, it was a expression that contained both joy and terror and the understanding that something had happened that could not be un-happened. "What are you going to do now?" she asked. I thought about it. I thought about the closet behind the bookshelf. I thought about the names. I thought about the music that lived in the walls and the floorboards and the space between the plaster and the lath. I thought about my grandfather in his study, drinking bourbon and reading newspapers from Memphis and refusing to hear the song that his family had been singing since 1842. "I don't know," I said. Clara nodded. She went back to washing the plate. She washed it slowly, methodically, the way people do things when they need to occupy their hands while their minds are doing something much more difficult. Two weeks later, the family meeting was called. It was held in the parlor, which was a room that was used for family meetings and funerals and occasionally for Sunday dinner when the dining room was too hot in July. There were five people in the room: my grandfather, Aunt Clara, two aunts I barely knew who had driven in from Jackson and Biloxi, and a man in a suit from New Orleans who introduced himself as Mr. LeBlanc and said that he was a family friend, which in Natchez is a phrase that usually means "someone who has something to gain." I was not invited to the meeting. But I was listening. I was always listening. I sat in the hallway outside the parlor with my ear against the door, and I heard them talk. They talked about me. They talked about the piano. They talked about Clara teaching me. They talked about the music I had played at Sunday dinner, which my grandfather had described in a voice so low that I could barely hear it over the wood of the door as "an abomination" and "a desecration" and "the result of Northern influence and miscegenated thinking." They talked about sending me away. A boarding school in Massachusetts, Mr. LeBlanc suggested. "A place where he can be corrected," he said. "Where he can be taught proper behavior and proper history." My grandfather agreed. "Tomorrow," he said. "Send for the car tomorrow." I stood in the hallway with my ear against the door and I listened to them decide my future, and I understood that the house had been right. It had been singing all along, and I had finally learned to hear it, and now they were going to silence me the way they had silenced everything else: by sending me away and hoping that distance would be the same as solution. That night, I went to the music room. I sat down at the piano. I played the hymn and the blues and the sonatina, and I added something new, something that I had not played before, something that came from a place deeper than memory and older than music. I played it and the house listened, and the house sang back, and I understood that I was not leaving empty-handed. I was taking the house with me. Not the physical house—the physical house would remain on the hill outside Natchez, slowly dying, slowly accepting the weight of the earth. I was taking the song. The song that had been written in blood and paint and silence. The song that had been sung by slaves and their children and their children's children, in kitchens and fields and churches and music rooms, in voices that had been told to be quiet and had been quiet and had sung anyway. I played it until dawn. Then I packed a bag. Then I walked out of the house and down the hill and onto the road that led to Jackson, and I did not look back. I am seventeen now. I live in Chicago. I work at a factory. I play piano on weekends at a church on the south side, a church that is mostly black and mostly poor and mostly ignored by the people who have power in this city. I play the hymn and the blues and the sonatina, and sometimes I add something new, and the people who come to that church on Sunday mornings listen, and some of them cry, and some of them smile, and some of them sit very still and look at the wall in front of them and see something that they have been trying not to see for a very long time. The house is still there. I know it is. I can hear it, sometimes, when the wind is right and the factory is quiet and the city is sleeping. I can hear it singing, the way it has been singing since 1842, the way it will probably keep singing until it collapses and becomes part of the hill that it stands on, which is itself part of the earth, which is itself part of something larger that I will probably never understand and probably never need to. The song is mine. 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