The truck would not start. It never did on the first try. Danny turned the key and the engine made a sound like something dying and then nothing. He turned it again. Same sound. Nothing. He turned it a third time and it caught, coughing, sputtering, running rough, and Danny put it in gear and drove. He was driving nowhere. That was the thing. He had been driving nowhere for three weeks, ever since the funeral, ever since he had stood at the grave and said nothing because there was nothing to say about a man who had spent his life saying nothing. The house smelled like old men. Danny had lived with that smell for twenty-eight years and never noticed it, but now that his father was gone, the smell was all that was left of him, and Danny did not know what to do with it. He found the lockbox on the second day. It was under the bed in his father's room, a metal box about the size of a shoebox, rusted at the corners. Danny had never seen it before. He tried the lid. It was locked. He found the key in a jar on the dresser, next to a handful of coins and a rubber band holding together a stack of paper money that had not been spent in years. Inside the box: no money. A stack of letters, yellowed and folded, tied together with a piece of string. And a medal. A bronze star on a ribbon, the kind you got for doing something brave in a war you did not want to fight. Danny sat on the edge of his father's bed and read the first letter. It was addressed to someone named Nguyen. The English was broken, awkward, written by a man who was trying to say something in a language that was not his. "Dear Mr. Nguyen," it said. "I don't know if you can read this. I don't know if you are alive. But I need to say it anyway." Danny read the letter all the way through. It was about a village. A firefight. Civilians. His father had been twenty years old, a private in the army, and he had done things that he was writing about now, fifty years later, in a house in Ohio to a man who might have been dead for decades. Danny put the letter down and picked up the next one. And the next. There were maybe forty letters in all, each one addressed to Nguyen, each one a variation on the same theme: I am sorry. I don't know if you can forgive me. I can't forgive myself. Danny read them all. He read them in his father's chair, in the kitchen, in the truck parked in the driveway. He read them over three days, and by the end, he understood two things: his father had killed people who were not soldiers, and his father had spent every day of his life since trying to carry the weight of that fact and failing. Danny called Linda. They had broken up six months ago, amicably, which was a polite way of saying that neither of them knew how to talk about the fact that they were just two people who had run out of reasons to keep trying. Linda answered on the fourth call. She sounded surprised. "Danny? Everything okay?" "No," Danny said. "I mean, yes. I don't know." He told her about the letters. He told her about his father. He told her about the village and the firefight and the man named Nguyen. Linda listened. She did not say much. When he finished, she said: "I'm sorry, Danny." "Sorry isn't helpful," he said, but he did not mean it. Her sorry was the only sorry there was. He hung up and drove. He got in the truck and turned the key and it took four tries to start and then he drove. He drove through town, past the closed factory, past the boarded-up stores on main street, past the gas station that had been closed for two weeks because the owner's wife was in the hospital. He drove on I-70 west. Through Indiana. Through Illinois. Through the places that blurred together, same sky, same flat land, same empty stretches of highway with no exits for twenty miles. He stopped at a rest stop outside Terre Haute and sat in the truck and watched the rain hit the windshield. The medal was on the dashboard, swinging slightly as the truck settled. The letters were on the passenger seat. Danny looked at them and looked at the road and did not know what to do. He thought about going to the VA. He thought about asking for help, for guidance, for someone to tell him what to do with forty letters that amounted to a confession without a crime to charge him with. But he was twenty-eight and ashamed and the idea of walking into a VA office and saying "my father killed people in Vietnam and I don't know what to do with it" made his throat close up. He thought about burning the letters. He held one over the cigarette lighter and watched the edge curl and blacken and then put it back. He could not. He thought about finding Nguyen. But he did not know who Nguyen was, or where he was, or if he was alive. His father had never given an address. Just a name. Nguyen. Danny drove. He drove through the night. He drove through the morning. He drove until the gas light came on and he pulled into a station in a town he did not know the name of and bought gas with hands that were shaking and got back on the highway and kept driving. At a rest stop outside Peoria, he sat in the truck and watched the sky. It was gray. It was going to rain again. He thought about going home. He thought about staying in the truck forever. He thought about a lot of things, and none of them were answers. The truck started on the third try. Danny put it in gear and drove. Not toward anything. Just drove. The gas station down the road was closed. The sky was gray. The medal swung on the dashboard. Danny Cole, twenty-eight, unemployed truck driver, son of a man who had killed people and spent fifty years saying sorry to a man named Nguyen, drove down I-70 through Illinois and did not know where he was going and did not know if he wanted to know. He turned the key. The engine cranked. It started. He drove. 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