In the autumn of 2005, Dr. Yusuf Al-Rashid noticed that his colleague Martin Henshaw no longer saved him a seat at the faculty lunch table. This was not, in itself, remarkable. The long oak table in the back corner of the Indiana Memorial Union cafeteria seated twelve, and Martin was a distracted man who sometimes forgot to place his briefcase on the adjacent chair. Yusuf stood at the serving line with his tray — tabbouleh, pita, a small cup of lentil soup — and scanned the room. Martin was there, talking animatedly with two junior professors from the political science department. The seat beside him was empty. Yusuf walked over. Martin looked up, his face performing a quick recalibration that Yusuf could not quite name, and said, "Oh, Yusuf — we thought you were at the Halal cart today." He said it kindly. He always said things kindly. The junior professors — Adam and Priya, both untenured, both people Yusuf had mentored through their first semesters — nodded and returned to their conversation about the new provost's budget cuts. Yusuf sat. The conversation continued around him like water around a stone. That was the first thing. There would be others, many others, but in October of 2005 Yusuf did not yet understand that he was being removed. He was forty-seven years old, a tenured professor of Middle Eastern history at Indiana University Bloomington, author of two well-regarded monographs and a third forthcoming from the University of Chicago Press. He had lived in Bloomington for fifteen years. His daughters, Layla and Miriam, attended University Elementary School. His wife, Amira, served on the PTA and volunteered at the Islamic Center's food pantry on Saturdays. Yusuf himself had delivered the commencement address in 2002, a speech about Ibn Khaldun and the cycles of civilization that the Bloomington Herald-Times had called "erudite but accessible." He was, by every measure available to a Libyan-American academic in a Midwestern college town, a success. A pillar. A man whose presence was assumed, whose belonging was unquestioned. The second thing happened three weeks later. Yusuf had been scheduled to present his ongoing research on Ottoman trade networks at the biannual history department colloquium, a slot he had held every November for six years. On Monday morning, his department chair, a medievalist named Claudia Webber, appeared at his office door. She did not enter. She leaned against the frame, one hand holding a manila folder, the other pressed flat against the wood as if she needed the support. "Yusuf," she said, "I wonder if we might push your colloquium to the spring. We've had an unexpected request from the dean's office — they want us to do a joint session with the School of Public and Environmental Affairs on post-Katrina recovery. Very timely. Very... visible." She smiled. Her smile was genuine, warm, the smile of a woman who had hired Yusuf in 1998 and championed his tenure case in 2001. "You understand." Yusuf understood. Hurricane Katrina had devastated New Orleans in August, and the university was eager to demonstrate its relevance. He nodded, said of course, said these things happen. Claudia thanked him with an intensity that seemed slightly out of proportion — "You're a treasure, Yusuf, truly" — and then she was gone, her sensible heels clicking down the terrazzo corridor. Yusuf sat at his desk and stared at his calendar. The colloquium date, November 17, had been circled in red ink. He took a black pen and drew a line through the circle. The third thing was his graduate seminar. In previous years, "State and Society in the Modern Middle East" had filled every seat by the second day of registration. This fall, enrollment had been light — eight students, down from the usual fifteen — but Yusuf had attributed this to the new scheduling software the registrar had implemented, or perhaps a competing seminar in the anthropology department. By the third week of October, however, two students had dropped. One cited "scheduling conflicts," the standard euphemism. The other, a bright young woman named Caitlin who had taken two previous courses with Yusuf, came to his office hours and sat in the chair across from his desk and would not meet his eyes. "My parents," she said. "After London." Yusuf waited. The July 7 bombings in London had killed fifty-two people, and the perpetrators had been British Muslims of Pakistani descent. "They're worried about my focus," Caitlin said. "They think I should be studying something more... relevant. To policy." Yusuf understood then that she was not dropping because of the bombings. She was dropping because her parents did not want their daughter studying the Middle East under a man named Al-Rashid. He signed the drop slip. He wished her well. She fled. The fourth thing was the library. Yusuf had been conducting research in the Wells Library's government documents section every Tuesday afternoon for over a decade. The reference librarian, a woman named Dorothy who had once helped him locate a 1923 British diplomatic cable that proved crucial to his second monograph, had always greeted him by name. On the first Tuesday of November, she did not. She was at her desk, as always. Yusuf approached, as always. "Good afternoon, Dorothy." She looked up. Her face registered something — not hostility, but a kind of careful neutralization, the expression of someone who has decided, in advance, not to engage. "Can I help you?" she said, in the voice she used for undergraduates who did not know where the periodicals were shelved. Yusuf reminded her of his name. "Of course," she said, too quickly, and pointed him toward the microfiche cabinets she knew he had navigated a hundred times. As he walked away, he heard her answer the phone and say, brightly, "Wells Library Reference, this is Dorothy." The fifth thing involved his older daughter. Layla was nine, a serious child with her mother's dark eyes and her father's habit of reading during meals. On a Thursday evening in mid-November, Amira returned from the PTA meeting and sat at the kitchen table and did not speak for a long moment. Yusuf was grading papers. He looked up. "What happened?" Amira's face was composed, but her hands were trembling slightly. She was a woman of immense control — she had been raised in Tripoli, the daughter of a diplomat, and had learned early to calibrate her public face — and Yusuf had rarely seen her struggle to maintain it. "Margaret Schumacher," Amira said. Margaret was the mother of Layla's best friend, Emma. "She asked me where I was really from." Yusuf set down his pen. "You've known Margaret for four years," he said. "Yes," Amira said. "She asked as if she'd just met me. As if the four years hadn't happened. As if she'd been wondering all along and had finally worked up the courage to ask." She paused. "I told her Indianapolis. She looked disappointed." The sixth thing was the incident at the Faculty Club. Yusuf had been a member since 1999, and he rarely went — the food was mediocre and the atmosphere was that particular brand of academic self-congratulation that made him uncomfortable — but his publisher's editor was visiting from Chicago, and the Club was the expected venue. They sat at a corner table. The editor, a sharp-eyed woman named Judith, was discussing marketing strategy for his forthcoming book when a man at the adjacent table leaned over and said, "Excuse me, but are you the fellow who teaches the terrorism course?" Yusuf had never taught a terrorism course. He taught Ottoman economic history. "No," he said. The man nodded, not quite satisfied. "Because my son is in the political science program, and he mentioned a professor, an Arab fellow —" Yusuf felt Judith go very still across the table. "I teach Middle Eastern economic history," Yusuf said, and the man nodded again and returned to his meal, and after a silence Judith said, "Shall we discuss the cover design?" Yusuf said yes, let's, and they discussed the cover design for forty minutes while the word "terrorism" hung in the air between them like smoke. The seventh thing was the house. Yusuf and Amira lived on East Hillside Drive, a tree-lined street of modest faculty homes within walking distance of the campus. Their neighbors on the left were the Albrechts — Gerhardt taught German literature, and his wife Ingrid kept an elaborate rose garden that Amira admired. For years, the Albrechts had hosted a Christmas open house, and the Al-Rashids had attended, and Gerhardt had made a point of telling Yusuf that his presence was "a reminder of what America can be at its best." In December 2005, the invitation did not arrive. Yusuf told himself it was an oversight. He told Amira it was an oversight. On the day of the party, they watched through their living room window as cars lined the street and guests walked up the Albrechts' driveway carrying bottles of wine and wrapped gifts. Layla asked why they weren't going. Amira said the Albrechts were having a small party this year. Miriam, who was seven, accepted this. Layla, who was nine, did not. The eighth thing was the security guard. The ninth was the student newspaper. The tenth was the dean. The eleventh was the tenure review committee's "informal consultation." The twelfth was the colleague in the parking lot who saw Yusuf walking toward him and suddenly remembered an appointment in the opposite direction. The thirteenth was the graduate student who had been assigned to Yusuf as a research assistant and then, without explanation, had been reassigned to the East Asian history group. The fourteenth was the chair of the faculty senate, who, when Yusuf offered to serve on the curriculum committee, said, "Let's not overload you this year — you have so much on your plate, with everything." Yusuf did not have anything on his plate beyond the normal obligations of a mid-career academic. He understood what "with everything" meant. It meant with being who you are. By February 2006, Yusuf was conducting an informal census of his life. He counted the number of colleagues who stopped by his office for unscheduled conversation: in February 2005, he estimated, there had been perhaps fifteen or twenty. In February 2006, there were three. He counted the number of dinner invitations extended by non-Muslim families: in 2005, six. In 2006, none. He counted the number of times he had been asked to serve on search committees, dissertation committees, planning committees: in 2005, nine. In 2006, one — and the request had come in a form letter circulated to the entire department, not a personal invitation. He was not being fired. He was not being shouted at. No one had spray-painted his house or left threatening messages on his voicemail. He was simply being subtracted, one small social molecule at a time, until the compound that had been his life was no longer what it had been. The most insidious thing was that he could not identify a villain. Claudia Webber was not a bigot — she had fought for his tenure, she had praised his work, she had invited the Al-Rashids to her home for Thanksgiving in 2003. Martin Henshaw had co-authored a book chapter with Yusuf in 2001, a comparative study of Persian and Ottoman administrative reforms, and had always been generous with his time. Dorothy the librarian had a grandson in Iraq, deployed with the Indiana National Guard, and Yusuf had asked about him regularly; she had always been grateful for the question. These were not cruel people. They were not even, in any conscious way, hostile people. They were people who had absorbed, through the skin of the culture, a new and ambient fear, and who were responding to that fear in the only way their social instincts allowed: by creating distance. They did not want to hurt Yusuf. They wanted to not have to think about him. The breaking point came in March, and it was not dramatic. Yusuf had been invited — genuinely invited, with warmth and specificity — to give a guest lecture at the University of Chicago. He drove up on a Friday morning, delivered the lecture to a full auditorium, answered questions with his characteristic blend of precision and approachability, and was treated to a dinner afterward by the department chair, an old friend from graduate school named Robert. The dinner was at a restaurant in Hyde Park. Robert ordered a bottle of wine and said, "You seem tired, Yusuf." Yusuf had not intended to tell Robert anything. He had intended to discuss the new monograph, the Chicago press, the prospect of a visiting appointment in the spring. Instead, he told Robert everything. The lunch table. The colloquium. The dropped seminar. Dorothy. The PTA. The Faculty Club. The Christmas party. The security guard who had stopped him, on a wet January afternoon, as he walked from the parking garage to his building, and asked to see his faculty ID — had asked, specifically, to see his faculty ID, not any ID — as if the concept of Yusuf Al-Rashid belonging on the Indiana University campus required documentary proof. He told Robert about Layla, who had come home in tears because Emma Schumacher had announced that they could no longer be friends — her mother had said so — and about Miriam, who had begun to ask, with the terrible clarity of a seven-year-old, whether they were "in trouble" and whether they would have to move. Robert listened. He did not interrupt. When Yusuf finished, Robert set down his wine glass and said, "Leave." "Where would I go?" "Here. Chicago. We have an opening. Islamic intellectual history. You'd be perfect. The search is already underway, and I can fast-track you as an internal candidate. You'd have to give up tenure — it would be a new appointment — but you'd have it back within three years. I can promise you that in writing." Yusuf looked at his plate. The remnants of a steak, ordered medium-rare, the only kind of meat he still ate in public because it was the least conspicuous. He thought about Bloomington. He thought about the oak tree in his backyard, the one Layla had learned to climb when she was six. He thought about Amira's rose bushes, transplanted from cuttings she had brought from Tripoli, which had finally, after four years of Indiana winters, begun to bloom. He thought about the fact that he had taught at Indiana University for fifteen years, that his daughters had been born at Bloomington Hospital, that his mortgage was held by a local bank whose loan officer knew his name and had once asked him, sincerely, about the Prophet Muhammad's views on interest. He thought about the fact that none of this mattered anymore. The community had made its decision. The decision was not written down, was not recorded in any administrative file, was not even, in all likelihood, recognized by the people who were making it. But it was final. "When do you need an answer?" "Yesterday," Robert said. Yusuf nodded. He picked up his fork and resumed eating. The steak was cold now, the fat congealed on the plate, but he ate it anyway, chewing methodically, because he did not know what else to do with his hands. He drove back to Bloomington that night. The highway was empty, the fields dark. Indiana in March was a landscape of waiting — the earth still frozen, the trees still bare, the whole world holding its breath for a spring that refused to arrive. Yusuf drove at exactly the speed limit, his hands at ten and two, and tried to calculate what he was feeling. It was not anger. Anger would have been simpler, more directional. It was not sadness, exactly, though sadness was part of it. The dominant sensation was something closer to disbelief — not the sharp, sudden disbelief of shock, but the slow, creeping disbelief of a man who has woken up to find that the world has been rearranged while he slept, that the geography he trusted is no longer accurate, that the maps he has been using were drawn for a country that no longer exists. He arrived home at midnight. Amira was awake, sitting in the kitchen with a cup of tea. She did not ask him how the lecture went. She looked at his face and said, "You're going to take it." It was not a question. "Yes," Yusuf said. Amira nodded. She had been a diplomat's daughter. She understood the physics of withdrawal — when and how to retreat, when to recognize that a position was no longer tenable. "How long?" "By fall semester. We could move in July. The girls would start the new school year in Chicago." Amira took a sip of her tea. "I'll call the real estate agent tomorrow." Yusuf sat down across from her. The kitchen was the same kitchen they had painted together when they bought the house, a soft yellow that Amira had chosen because it reminded her of the light in Tripoli. The countertops were cluttered with the debris of a family: Layla's spelling worksheet, Miriam's half-finished drawing of a horse, a stack of bills Yusuf had been meaning to pay. Everything was exactly as it had been, and nothing was the same. Yusuf reached across the table and took his wife's hand. They sat like that for a long time, two people holding on to each other in a kitchen in Indiana, while the house around them — the house they had bought, the house they had filled with children and books and the smell of Amira's cooking — became, cell by cell, a memory of something that had already ended. The move happened in July, under a sky the color of old pewter. The moving truck was loaded by men who did not know the names of the people whose possessions they were carrying. Yusuf supervised, directing boxes to the correct rooms of the truck, while Amira drove the girls to say goodbye to their school. Layla refused to go to Emma Schumacher's house — "She's not my friend anymore" — but she agreed to leave a note in the mailbox, a single sentence written in her careful cursive: "I'm moving to Chicago where people are nice." Miriam cried, not because she understood what was happening, but because Layla was upset, and Miriam always cried when Layla was upset. At three o'clock in the afternoon, the truck pulled away from the curb. Yusuf did a final walk-through of the house. The rooms were empty, the walls bare, the carpets showing the pale rectangles where furniture had stood. In the kitchen, on the windowsill above the sink, he found a single object that the movers had missed: a small ceramic tile, hand-painted with an Arabic inscription, which Amira had kept as a reminder to be patient in the face of things she could not control. Yusuf picked it up. He slipped it into his pocket. He walked out the front door and did not look back. The drive to Chicago took four hours. The girls slept in the back seat, their heads resting against the windows. Amira navigated, her finger tracing the route on a printed MapQuest sheet. Yusuf drove, and as he drove he thought about the ceramic tile in his pocket, and about the word it bore: "Sabr." Patience. Endurance. The quality of a stone that holds its shape while the river wears it down. He had always thought of sabr as a virtue, a form of strength. Now he was not sure. Now he wondered whether sabr was simply another word for staying too long, for refusing to recognize when the river had already won. They reached Chicago as the sun was setting. The skyline rose up before them, a wall of glass and steel catching the last light. Yusuf had always loved this city, its muscular confidence, its indifference to approval. He looked at Amira. She was watching the skyline too. 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