I see them inside people. Black veins, like rivers on a map, branching and subdividing until they fill the entire landscape of a body. Some are thin and faint—minor illnesses, the kind the body heals on its own. Some are thick and dark, pulsing with a rhythm that is not quite the heart's rhythm, as if something living were growing inside something living, feeding, spreading. I have seen them since I was twelve. My mother saw me staring at the neighbor's dog and screaming because I could see the tumor inside it, dark and knotted, growing like a second heart. She took me to a priest. The priest took me to a doctor. The doctor gave me pills that made the world blurry and the black veins disappear. For a while, they worked. But the pills stopped working, and the veins came back, and now I am twenty-five and I live in a basement in Dublin and I take laudanum to quiet the Sight and it only works for a few hours and then the veins are back and I am back with them, seeing what other people cannot see, carrying what other people cannot carry. The Sight is not a gift. My grandmother called it a gift. My father called it a curse. I have come to believe it is neither. It is a symptom. A symptom of something wrong with my brain, the way a tumor causes hallucinations, the way fever causes delirium. But unlike a tumor, I cannot be operated on. Unlike a fever, I cannot be broken with ice. It is me. It is always been me. It will always be me. Rose Fitzpatrick came to me on a Thursday in October. The letter that brought her was written in a hand so precise it looked printed: My daughter is ill. All physicians have failed. I understand your family possesses unusual knowledge. I am prepared to pay handsomely for your assistance. Lord Patrick Fitzpatrick. I did not want to go. Every time I use the Sight on someone, it gets louder. The veins become more visible, more complex, more insistent. It is like turning up the volume on a radio that is always playing, always screaming, always showing me the hidden anatomy of every person I look at. I take laudanum to mute it. But the more I take, the less I can tell what is real and what is the drug. But the money was good, and my rent was due, and the laudanum dealer does not accept IOUs. The Fitzpatrick townhouse was on Merrion Square, one of those Georgian masterpieces that make Dublin look like a city instead of what it is—a place where grandeur and decay sit next to each other like old enemies who have learned to share a wall. Rose was in a drawing room that smelled of lavender and something else, something sweet and cloying, like flowers left too long in a vase. She was twenty, slight, pale, with dark hair and large eyes that were too bright for her face. And beneath her skin— The Sight flared without my permission. Her veins were not black. They were gold. I have never seen gold veins before. Not in all my years of seeing, not in all the bodies I have examined, not in the sick and the dying and the barely-alive. Her veins were gold—thin, luminous threads that coiled around her heart and branched outward like vines, beautiful and terrible and impossible. "What do you see?" she asked. Her voice was soft, musical, the voice of someone who had spent her life being told she was fragile. "Gold," I said. "Your veins are gold." She smiled, and it was the saddest smile I have ever seen. "That is what Mother says too. She says I am turning into something beautiful before I die." "I am not your father's physician," I said. "I am something else. And I do not know what you are." "Then help me find out." I began treatment the next day. It was not treatment in any conventional sense. I did not prescribe herbs or administer needles or perform any of the rituals my family had practiced for generations. I sat with her. I talked to her. I listened to her describe her symptoms—the fatigue, the occasional fever, the dreams that felt more real than waking life, the sensation of something warm and golden moving beneath her skin. "I dream of a garden," she told me. "A garden full of golden flowers. And I am walking through it, and the flowers are singing, and I am so happy that I want to stay forever." "Does your father know about these dreams?" "He thinks I am hysterical. Dr. Sterling thinks I am hysterical. Hysteria is such a convenient word, is it not? It means nothing, so everyone can pretend they understand." Dr. Arthur Sterling was the neurologist at St. Thomas's Hospital who had been consulting on Rose's case. He was a follower of the new French theories—Freud and his ideas about the mind and the body and the hidden chambers of human psychology. He had examined Rose and diagnosed hysteria and prescribed rest and opium and waited. "He thinks I am repressing something," Rose said. "But I do not think repression is the answer. I think the opposite—I am remembering something. Something my body knows but my mind has forgotten." "What do you think your body is remembering?" She looked at me for a long time. "Death. I think my body is remembering how to die." I felt the gold veins pulse beneath her skin, and I felt something inside me pulse in response, as if my body recognized hers, as if it knew something my mind did not. The Sight was getting louder. Every time I looked at Rose, the gold veins became more visible, more complex, more beautiful. And with each passing day, I could feel my grip on reality loosening, the way a hand loosens its grip on a rope when the climb becomes too difficult. I started taking more laudanum. It helped with the Sight—it muted the veins, made them fainter, less insistent—but it also made everything else blurry. The walls of my basement apartment seemed to breathe. The shadows in the corner moved when I was not looking directly at them. And sometimes, when I looked in the mirror, I saw someone else looking back at me—someone older, darker, with eyes that were not quite mine. Who was he? I did not know. But he was there, in the mirror, in the corner of my vision, in the space between one heartbeat and the next. "You are seeing him now, aren't you?" Rose said, when I told her about the man in the mirror. We were sitting in her drawing room, and the afternoon light was filtering through the lace curtains, making everything look like a painting. "Who is he?" "I do not know. But I think he is part of you. The part that sees. The part that hurts. The part that—" She searched for the word. "Wants to save me." "I might be the one who is killing you, not saving you." "Then kill me beautifully," she said, and smiled that sad smile again. The gold veins were spreading. They had moved from her heart to her arms, her neck, her face. She was more beautiful than ever—pale skin, golden threads visible beneath it, dark hair, bright eyes. She looked like a Pre-Raphaelite painting, like something that belonged in a gallery instead of a drawing room in Dublin. But she was dying. I could see it in the way the gold veins pulsed, slower and slower, like a clock winding down. I went to my姑母 Bridget. She was sixty, mad, and the only person I trusted. She lived in a small house in the north side of Dublin, surrounded by cats and books and the things that mad people collect—the debris of a mind that has stopped filtering the world. "Mother Bridget," I said. "The O'Brien men. The Sight. What is it?" She looked at me with eyes that were clear despite the madness, clear and sad and knowing. "It is what your father had. And his father had. And his father before him. It is the O'Brien family inheritance, like the land or the talent for music or the tendency to drink ourselves to death." "Is it a disease?" "It is a condition. The doctors would call it schizophrenia. Paranoid hallucinations with visual components. But your family has always called it the Sight, and I suppose that is as good a name as any." "Can it be treated?" She laughed, and the laugh was bitter. "Treated? Cian, look at me. Your father tried to treat it. He took laudanum. He took opium. He took every remedy his family ever devised. And what happened?" "He went mad." "He stopped pretending he was not mad. There is a difference." I went back to Rose. The gold veins were almost visible to the naked eye now, even without the Sight. She knew it. She knew she was dying. But she was not afraid. "I have been afraid my whole life," she told me. "Afraid of dying, afraid of living, afraid of being myself. But now—now I am not afraid. Now I know exactly what is happening to me, and it is beautiful, and I am ready." "Ready to die?" "Ready to stop pretending." I sat with her that night, holding her hand, watching the gold veins pulse beneath her skin, feeling the man in the mirror watching me back. And I understood, finally, what the gold veins were. They were not poison. They were not disease. They were inheritance. The Fitzpatrick family carried something—a genetic tendency toward a particular kind of beauty and a particular kind of death. The women in the family were always beautiful, always fragile, always dying young. Their mothers died in childbirth. Their sisters died of fevers. Their aunts died of consumption. And the men— the men were violent and unstable and self-destructive, destroying themselves and everyone around them with a force that was not quite madness and not quite choice. It was not a curse. It was genetics. It was chemistry. It was the slow accumulation of inherited vulnerabilities, expressed differently in different bodies, but always the same pattern: beauty and death, side by side, like two flowers growing from the same root. And I— I carried the Sight because my family's vulnerability was different. Instead of beauty and death, my family got vision. The ability to see what other people could not see. And it was not a gift. It was not a curse. It was just another way for the O'Brien family to suffer. Rose died on a Tuesday in November. She was twenty years old. The gold veins had spread across her entire body, visible beneath her skin like a map of something beautiful and unknown. She was smiling when she died, smiling like someone who had just entered a garden full of golden flowers. I held her hand. The man in the mirror was standing behind me, watching, his face my face but older and darker and sadder. And I understood that he was not a hallucination. He was me. The me that I would become if I kept seeing, kept hurting, kept trying to save people I could not save. After Rose died, the Sight did not get quieter. It got louder. The gold veins were gone from her body, but they had transferred to mine, or maybe they had always been mine and I had only seen them clearly through her. I do not know. I do not know anything anymore, except that the veins are inside me and they are gold and they are beautiful and they are killing me, slowly, beautifully, just like they killed her. Dr. Sterling came to the funeral. He stood next to me and looked at the coffin and said, "Hysteria. It is always hysteria." "No," I said. "It is not hysteria." "Then what is it, Mr. O'Brien? What do you believe it was?" I looked at him, and I looked through him, and I saw the black veins inside his heart—small, faint, the beginning of something. A heart condition. He did not know it yet. He would know it in a year, maybe two. By then, it would be too late. "I believe," I said, "that everyone has veins. Some are black. Some are gold. And they all lead to the same place." He stared at me and decided I was mad. He was probably right. I went back to my basement apartment and took the laudanum and closed my eyes and saw the gold veins beneath my eyelids, pulsing, beautiful, endless. The man in the mirror was there, always there, watching me, waiting for me to join him in the space between seeing and being seen. I am writing this now because someone should know. Not the truth—the truth is too complicated and too simple and too ordinary to be interesting. But someone should know that the Sight is real, and that it is not a gift, and that it is not a curse, and that it is just another way for human beings to suffer in private while the world looks on and calls it hysteria. The gold veins are spreading. I can feel them moving, slowly, toward my heart. When they reach it, I will die. I will smile when I die. I will dream of a garden full of golden flowers. And someone, someday, will see me the way I saw Rose—beautiful and dying and not afraid—and they will call it hysteria. They will be right. 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