The first time I lost an hour, I thought I had fallen asleep. It was a Tuesday in November, 1895, and I was sitting at the desk in my room at Blackwood Hall, writing in my journal. I remember the exact words I wrote: "The rain has not stopped for three days. The house smells of damp wool and old paper, and Henry says he may be away until Christmas." After that, nothing. I came to standing in the kitchen, holding a cup of tea that was still warm, with Mrs. Higgins, the housekeeper, standing across from me looking concerned. "Miss Isolde," she said. "Are you quite well?" "I... yes," I said. "How long have I been here?" "Since about half past four. It is now half past five." An hour. I had lost a full hour, and I had no memory of it whatsoever. I told myself it was fatigue. I had been up late the night before, reading, and the damp in the house was getting to me. It happened sometimes in the winter, when the darkness came early and the fire did not burn hot enough. One moment you are awake, and the next you are standing somewhere you do not remember walking, with no recollection of how you got there. I did not mention it to Henry. He was already distant, spending more time in Dublin at the embassy and less time at Blackwood Hall, and I did not want to give him another reason to think me fragile. The second time I lost an hour, I was in the library. I had been looking for a book on herbal medicine—my mother had left me a collection of texts on the subject, and I had been reading them since the wedding, half in nostalgia and half in boredom—and when I came to, I was on the floor, the book open beside me, and my hands were covered in ink. I do not remember writing anything. The third time was worse. I was in the garden, walking along the gravel path that circled the pond, and when I came to, I was standing at the edge of the pond, looking down at the water, and my dress was wet to the knee, and there was a dead bird lying on the path beside me, its neck broken. I did not remember breaking its neck. That was when I went to Dr. Finch. William Finch was our family doctor, a quiet man in his forties with kind eyes and steady hands. He had been treating my mother before she died, and when she passed, he had continued to treat me, out of duty and out of something that felt like affection but which I refused to name. He examined me in his surgery, which was above his pharmacy on Main Street in the village. He asked me questions about my sleep, my appetite, my mood. He listened to my heart. He looked at my eyes. And then he sat back in his chair and folded his hands and looked at me with an expression that was neither alarmed nor reassuring, but thoughtful. "Miss Isolde," he said slowly. "Have you experienced any recent trauma? Any significant emotional disturbance?" "My husband left me," I said. It was not quite true. Henry had not left me. He had simply stopped coming home. The house was mine now, in every way that mattered except the legal ones, which were complicated by the fact that, under English law, a woman's property became her husband's upon marriage. My mother's house was still legally in Henry's name, though he had forgotten to change the deed and I had forgotten to mention it to him. "That must be difficult," Dr. Finch said. "It is not difficult. It is... confusing." He nodded. "I see. Well, I have a theory. It is not a dangerous one, but it is not common either. I think you may be experiencing something called dissociation." "Dissociation?" "A splitting of the mind. It happens when a person experiences something too painful to process all at once. The mind creates a separation, a kind of barrier, between the conscious self and the traumatic experience. In your case, I believe the trauma is not a single event but a slow accumulation of disappointments. Your mother's death. Your unhappy marriage. The isolation of country life. All of it has been building up, and your mind is finding ways to cope." "How do I stop it?" "You do not stop it," he said. "Not entirely. But you can learn to manage it. And I think the key may lie in your mother's journals. You mentioned she kept journals?" "Yes." "May I see them?" I brought them home that evening and gave them to Dr. Finch. He read them over the next week, and when he returned them, he looked different. More serious. More concerned. "Isolde," he said, using my first name for the first time. "Your mother experienced the same thing you are experiencing now." I stared at him. "What do you mean?" "She had a second personality. A part of herself that emerged when she was under extreme stress. It was not a disease, not exactly. It was more like... a survival mechanism. When your father betrayed her—which he did, brutally, with a woman who was twenty years younger than she was—she could not bear the pain. So her mind created another version of herself, one that was stronger, colder, more ruthless. A version that could do what she could not do: take revenge." I sat down heavily. "You are telling me that I am... not myself?" "I am telling you that you are more than yourself," he said gently. "And that this other part of you may be trying to tell you something." I did not sleep that night. I sat in my room, my mother's journals spread out on the bed beside me, and I read them by candlelight. And as I read, I began to understand. My mother had not simply been a victim. She had been a woman who had been broken and rebuilt herself into something harder and sharper and more dangerous than she had ever been before. And she had left me her journals not as a record of her suffering, but as a manual for her transformation. The last entry was dated the week before she died. It was written in a hand that was different from the rest of the journal—sharper, more angular, less careful. I recognised it immediately. It was the same hand that had signed the letter I had found in the garden three months ago, the letter from Henry's mistress, the letter that had arrived the day after Henry had spent his birthday in Dublin instead of at home. The letter had been anonymous. I had burned it without reading it, because I had not wanted to know. But now I knew. My mother had written that letter. Or rather, the other part of her had. And she had not simply written it. She had sent it to Henry's mistress with a copy to Henry, exposing the affair in a way that destroyed both their reputations and forced Henry to return to her, broken and ashamed and begging for forgiveness. She had never told me about this. She had never told anyone. Because the other part of her did not exist for anyone else to see. The next morning, I went to Dr. Finch and told him everything. He listened without interruption, and when I finished, he nodded slowly. "What do I do?" I asked. "You do not have to do anything," he said. "The other part of you is not an enemy. She is a protector. She is there because you need her. The question is not how to get rid of her, but how to work with her." "Work with her?" "Talk to her," he said. "When you lose time, do not be afraid. Ask yourself: what did she do while I was gone? What did she see? What did she feel? She is part of you, Isolde. She knows things that you do not know. She sees things that you cannot see. And she is trying to help you." I went home and tried it. The first time I lost time after speaking with Dr. Finch, I was in the library. I came to sitting at the desk, a pen in my hand, a sheet of paper in front of me. On the paper was a list of names. Henry's business partners. The men who had helped him build his career, men who had taken bribes and embezzled funds and lied to him about their intentions. The other part of me had been investigating. I read the list and felt a cold satisfaction spread through me. She was right. Henry had been lying to me for years, and I had been too blind to see it. But she had seen. She had found out the truth. And now she had given it to me. From that point on, I began to keep a journal of my own. Not like my mother's, which had been a record of her feelings and her fears and her hopes. This was different. This was a record of what happened when I was not there. What the other part of me saw. Who she spoke to. What she discovered. And what she discovered was horrifying. Henry was not just unfaithful. He was corrupt. He had been taking money from his business partners, falsifying accounts, and using his position in the embassy to influence decisions that affected the entire country. He had built his career on lies and theft and betrayal, and he had used my mother's money—and now my money—to fund it. The other part of me knew all of this. She had been gathering evidence for months, quietly and systematically, while I sat in the house and read books and watered plants and pretended not to notice that my life was falling apart. And now she was ready to act. I did not resist her. I could not. She was not an invader. She was me. And she was doing what I could not do: fighting back. The first thing she did was contact Henry's mistress, a young woman named Catherine who was twenty-two and pregnant and terrified. The other part of me found her in a small apartment in Dublin, living on the edge of poverty and despair, and she did not gloat. She did not threaten. She simply offered her a choice: testify against Henry and receive protection and financial support, or remain silent and be discarded when Henry's empire collapsed, which it would, inevitably. Catherine chose to testify. The second thing she did was compile the evidence into a dossier so thorough and so damning that it could bring down not just Henry but half the political establishment in Dublin. She sent copies to every newspaper she could find, to every rival politician, to every person who had a reason to want Henry destroyed. The third thing she did was the most dangerous of all. She went to see Henry. I came to standing in his study, which I recognised because I had been there a dozen times before. Henry was sitting at his desk, his head in his hands, looking older and smaller and more fragile than I had ever seen him. When he saw me, he looked up, and his eyes widened in shock and fear. "Isolde," he said. "What are you doing here?" "I could ask you the same question," I said. And then I realised that I was not speaking alone. My voice was the same, but the tone was different. Colder. Harder. More confident. "You should not be here, Henry. This is my house. My mother's house. And you have taken enough from me already." He stared at me, and I saw the moment he realised that something was wrong. Not just wrong, but fundamentally, terrifyingly different. "Who are you?" he whispered. "I am the woman you betrayed," I said. "And I am the woman who is going to destroy you." He tried to speak, to deny it, to bargain, to beg. But I did not give him the chance. I simply turned and walked out of the study, leaving him sitting at his desk, alone and broken and afraid. When I came to, I was standing at the gate of Blackwood Hall, looking up at the house. The sun was setting, casting long shadows across the lawn. And for the first time in months, I felt something that was not fear or sadness or anger. I felt power. The other part of me was strong. Stronger than I had ever been. Stronger than Henry. Stronger than anyone who had ever tried to hurt me. And she was mine. Not my mother's. Not some separate entity. Mine. I walked up the path and into the house, and I went to my room, and I sat down at my desk, and I began to write. Not in my mother's journal. Not in the journal where I recorded what the other part of me had done while I was gone. In a new journal. A journal for the future. Because the other part of me had done what she set out to do. Henry was finished. His reputation was ruined. His career was over. His business partners had turned on him, and his mistress had testified against him, and the evidence I had compiled had been published in every newspaper in the country. He was a broken man, sitting in a broken house, waiting for the police to come and arrest him. And I was a whole woman, sitting in my mother's house, ready to begin my life. Not the life I had planned. Not the life I had dreamed of. Just the life I had. And it was enough. It was more than enough. 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